JAPANESQUE

bad days bad days

in a totally sadistic/cynical/bitchy/irritated mood.

feel like clubbing.

BUT.

feel like playing tennis.

BUT.

wad the fuck.

every fucking things just doesnt go my fucking way.

maybe im just WEAK.

when other people can actually get things done THEIR way.

really dun like imposing on pple.

any way even if i do, id just feel they had felt imposed by me.

and probably end up feeling worst.

well, dear's right.

everybody's got their own lives to lead.

not as though ive been a fantastic fren.

so i shld jus not expect too much from anybody i guess.

though tt'll hardly leave me w anybody i can talk/confide to cept for my baby.

am sceptical.

is everything just really superficial and restricted to having fun?

no dun let that happen please.

letme see stg else..

prove me wrong.

well. have had just abt enuff from the little shits

they dun seem to have ANYthing short of insensibility, immaturity and disrespect for anybody else apart from their precious nike-shoed,intrinsically-coiffed,soccer-playing,vulgar-sprouting,studies-hating,singlish-speaking,permanently-horny fucking SELVES.

nothing seems to work.

NOT speaking their language
NOT being friendly
NOT shouting+screaming
NOT talking nicely
NOT keeping quiet
NOT sending them out
NOT making them stand

so wad the fuck else is there?

OH
i know.

seating them outside the classroom permanently and they can just fail and not attend lessons
(which is wad they want really.)

OR
sending them to the office every lesson

reporting to the DM every lesson

and maybe just try to kick them outta class?

its fuckng hard man.
its FUCKING FUCKING HARD to help them when they're not even INTERESTED in fucking helping themselves.

im counting down to the last straw.

i need to hit some balls.
i need to fucking CLUBB