JAPANESQUE

i wanna talk abt my first ever huge ass crush

i was from a cheena pok neighbourhood primary school sumwhere in hougang south

for P6 talent time everyone sang Guan Huai Fang Shi which is still a greatly reverated ktv singalong now

i sang Dan Xiao Gui by Gigi Leong tho, and the most memorable part of the song has got to be the comment by my pri sch crush (whu i cannot and will probably nv forget). he said i sang damn well ahahha the wonders of a simple praise---kept me happy even 7 yrs down the road

Daniel Chan songs reminds me of tt guy. He gave me a daniel chan CD(Zhi Gan i tink) for my super belated birthday in reciprocation of my gift to him on his bday (still remember its 19th June, a gemini) in a nice face-off cartoon printed paper bag bought from the now defunct Emporium @ Kovan (THE shopping place of tt time). cant rem wad was in the bag tho must be some stupid stuff coz he nv liked me back. anyway, i dun have the album he gave me originally anymore coz i gave it back to him when i found out tt he only gave me sumthing coz i gave him sumthing. and well u noe, tho $20 bucks for an album was HUGE money in p6 but i still managed to scrimp and bought myself anuther copy of the album just to spite and to remember him by.

the last time i saw him was in sec 1 i tink, at the busstop shared by chung cheng main, tkgs and tkss (he went to chung cheng) and after tt he disappeared from Singapore. last heard he went back to taiwan after breaking more hearts of his yr younger compatriots in the first yr in chung cheng.

in sec3 i told jingx huiyun and xiangyi all about him and tried to make them find him for my 15th bday. at tt time Super Sunday's find pple segment led by ah liang was like THE show to watch (if anybody rems) and i used to dream of finding him thru tt channel n how he wld react and how he wld look etc etc etc

obviously my dear dear frens cldnt fly to taiwan to look for him so their really cute substitute was a potrait of him under their impression in the bday card which i still keep and will nv throw away.

one of my precious momentos of him is his autograph in my autograph book which he wrote, "To Yunwen, all the best and may everything go ur way" in perfect calligraphic chinese.

one of my most precious pictures of him is the one i accidentally took of him during our graduating trip to Perth. i took a picture of the cow. and only 3yrs later aft developing the pictures did i realise his entire side profile was captured in the photo as well. the picture is with me. NOW

i dunnoe if it was p6 stupidity and naivety, but he was just the coolest guy then. not conventionally goodlooking, if not not good looking at all. but just taller den all the pre-pub pathetic boys ard since he is 2 yrs older coz hes from taiwan and dark. ill always remember him and his white deuter bag, carried only on one shoulder and silver spoon watch.epitome of p6 cool

i noe wad i want to say if i ever see him ever again. iwanna ask him if he ever saw me beyond the irritating plump not pretty girl whu had a permanent crush on him.i wanna ask him if he really liked my short plump but pretty fren whu kept from me tt she liked him back too. i wanna tell him tt he has probably permanently shaped my idea of a hunk and ideal swoon worthy guy of my dreams from primary school till now.

i really wanna find out how he looks like now, and if he's stilll the tall, dark, well-dressed, broad-shouldered, silent brooding leader of the pack. i wanna noe if he remembers me and my song he liked i wanna noe if he's still in singapore

i wanna noe wad became of the guy whu was my real life prince charming ideal guy whu never liked me back but liked every other female fren ard me coz they were all prettier. if he still defined pretty girls to talk to and if he ever learnt the meaning of "hell hath no fury that of a woman scorned"

the fury that is immortal and re-ignits just once in a while to remind the woman that she will nv be able to be the magnet nv to be scorned.