JAPANESQUE

finally back at home after almost a mth's long hiatus!

still not used to the bigger desktop screen at home yet...
nor the comfy and big keyboard n mousey..
nor the close proximity of the toilet and CABLE TV!

but am enjoying so far coz ive been homesick for a while.

kinda miss the studying days just a week ago, esp during the study break
we just studied studied and studied and bothered about nuthing else..
i liked the seemingly mundane and routine lifestyle den
morning wake up at 11, lunch den mug till dinner, break blog a bit, pictures here and there
DEN back to study room mugg till 2/3 with maybe and very occasionally supper in btwn and there the cycle repeats..

very stable, very routine
it was predictable and perhaps boring to some but i found some kind of peace w that
of coz albeit moments of extreme frustration and ''dun feel like studying"
but it was good and easy on my single-tasking mind

the exams and all tt studying flew by 9 to use the oldest most conventional cliched term ever).
in fact, the whole sem sped by.
so much things has happened and changed and so much learnt and unlearnt immediately after the exams!
i can still remember FWOC n IBG times but at the same time those moments seem so foggy and belong to something long long long time ago!

its super amazing how different we all were, how different KR was to me and a lot other freshies compared to when we just came in and now
frenship, relationship forged. and lost.
easy peasy man every thing's speedy in the halls.

u see so many pple getting close den a mth or even weeks later, they barely tok
and most of the time its not like it was on purpose or wadever but it just happens..
but usually its when one person in the grp goes away n joins some foreign club or just simply stops hanging out to start intense mugging or just goes home for a few days in fact,
when tt person comes back, things will just not b the same sometimes.
its amazing.

its like wadever close-ness u have can just be dissolved in like a few days just because u're not ard..
it may be because u guys were simply just not exactly v close to begin w or perhaps
to present my theory that to a large extent, hall and uni frenships or relationships r based on tangibility of presence.
if u're there, u're there.
if u're not, den some byebye to u.
if not..its likely u'll lose some sense of belonging when u're back simply because of the fact that in hall, every thing is speeded up

its like how decomposition can b speedied up by termites or like the film infection we watched, the decaying of the dead body speedied up in a heater room.
i mean its a v gross and sick analogy and im not saying hall is gross and turn-offing but well
tt was the first image tt came to mind bcoz often such hot n cold shit is just mentally draining and irritating.

and sad becoz u start to wonder if u really have a trully close fren u have ard in hall or uni and tt person is not someone from ur sec sch or jc or just anybody u knew b4 meetin in hall or in nus.

maybe its in over-generalization and maybe its just too early to say coz i have only been in NUS for a sem but for now, this is how and wad i feel from myself and from experiences shared from others..

sad aight?

so sad tt some frenships r so high maintenance and just when u think u're really good frens alrdy something just changed and u're not anymore or maybe tt's just becoz u werent there for a few days.

or tt some frenships r really just for fun. no depth no substance and entirely based on tangibility of presence.

u start to qns all the effort (if any) u put in to maintain such relationships, other pple u've neglected in order to be there. to be in the picture.

maybe really, everything not toned and matured by time as yet..
all too young and immature to say, adolescent frenship and relationships volatile n prone to change.

i guess then only time can tell if it was all worth the effort, if we're really good frens and no period of time can corrode the sense of belonging and attachment..

well well, ill content w wadever few i have but sad to say most r from jc and sec sch..

but welll, we shall see if we get disappointed or not.

more happy posts about post exam activity soon =0)