JAPANESQUE

Welcome to my crappiest new year, ever.

Dad got admitted to hospital the day before CNY eve, mistakenly discharged on first day of CNY.

mistakenly because he started acting weird again ala Feb 2007. weirdness continued and escalated on Friday. so it's back to the hospital again, but this time round had to drag and cajole him into the car. well, no ambulance at least.

so, a whole new year in and out of the hospital..spent the last two nights watching him..he's really finally better today..making sense but has forgotten wad got him back to the hospital again.

I thank God for making him well again, and for giving me the strength to go on and hold the family up. Well, of coz i think my mom's strong as well but i think this time round it was more me.

I Thank God because despite all these, i am still optimistic. i wan to plan a house party this weekend to make up for the lost first few days of CNY and bring more warmth to the house which has been gloomy for the past week.

but nothing's concrete yet. nothings concrete until my dad's tumor is removed, and he's back to normal (for concerned frens, tumor is benign. just affects his hormonal and sodium levels, causing erratic behavioural change. its all circa Feb 2007 for those who can remember. its back because he got sick again, vomitting, n cause he has been smart alecky n not taking his hormone therapy pills as prescribed and lack of sodium intake due to vomitting and slight food poisoning.)

i say nothing's concrete yet coz he's just regained logic and consciousness, but still weak. yet doctors say he may be able to be discharged tmr. im highly suspicious of speedy discharges now. wanna be safe den sorry again.. so we shall see how it goes for the next few days. Pray for my dad those who can :)

so now you noe how my cny went, i dun need to repeat my story too much now.. not to worry, u guys please can go n enjoy yours as much as you wan im really fine, numbed to no CNY but still positive (think my planned revenge CNY party) :) so just pray that my planned party will come true and that my family and i will be able to make the best out of wads left of the new year, provided my dad recovers fully. with no hint of a relapse. ever. its farking draining man. but at least this nightmare seems to be ending..

more next time maybe..but for now, sleep.