JAPANESQUE

Oh yay!! Finally!! Acceptance is finally here!

Acceptance of the fact that this person is really not for me and come on let's face it, he'd never be able to give u what u want because he just did not love u enough!

So yes. I recognize that I no longer want to be with him. N maybe, eventually I will be happy for the both of u (it'll be easier when I find my own happiness of coz) but ea eventually I think I will.

However tho, I still am finding it hard not to be upset over ur silent treatment of me. Of ur cowardice in facing me and admitting "that hey yes, I never did love u that much."
I have come to accept that yes, u were capable of more but not to me for sure. U just could not bring urself to care that much about me.
This breakup then, is really a great thing!imagine if u did make urself settle for me, well, the love would never have been enuff from u to me.

So yes, I made the right call n I can understand ur haste n passion now coz maybe u have finally met someone u could love with all ur heart.
N it hurts me so bad for the few reasons below
1) my ego is shattered because ur being unable to love me just made it seem that I am hard to love.
2) it hurts pretty damn bad when something u have suspected for years us proved right with the very act of u getting over me n devoting urself to someone new in one month.
3) that our 4 years tgt meant jackass to u.
4) u are choosing to ignore the fact that I ever existed and refusing to face up to me with the above realizations.

There is no other word than 'heartless' to describe u right now. That I bared my soul and begged u back n u did not even have the courtesy to reply my email and/or care whether I was dead or alive.

U can be happy with ur life now, u can go ahead and love her but do u really have to do this to me?!

We were after all, companions, very close ones at that, for 4 years.