JAPANESQUE

I thought my heart was dormant but I guess I still do miss u.
Sometimes, images of us still rush through my head and that would make me so sad and I'd put them away so fast coz i Noe they dun ever surface in ur head anymore.

It's all boils down to one word: hurt.
That I meant so little that u were able to devote yourself to another person quickly. You care? My jackass. Everytime I tok to your frens? All they say is forget about him he never did love you that much.
Wow.
Painful to hear? Imagine how painful to receive that.
How could that possibly mean you cared??

I dunno how that hurt would be nursed. Well, I have been more zen, doing yoga like a mad fiend. But I guess the easiest way was really to distract myself with another person but well guess what, I was not as lucky as u. There is no one. Evern if there was I jus couldn't bring myself yo jump into anything like you did.

Seriously how the fuck do you do it??
How can you allow yourself to be so close to another person so fast?
To have a change of heart so fast?
Even if I was to meet someone awesome, I did in fact, the feeling is just different and a normal human being would hesitate.
But you didn't.
Even after I groveled at your feet.
So yeah.
That's how much I meant to you.

You're good.
I'm not good enough to do that.