JAPANESQUE

actually i'm trying very hard not to think about you. and am stopping myself from calling you when i feel like it. am hesitating calling you out. coz i noe i only can afford to be like this when i have time. when i'm busy i may neglect you n you noe it has happened before and will prob happen again. im scared ill take you for granted if i ask you back. that will probably happen if i do. i dun wan you to be like there in the background n treating me much nicer den i can. sigh. i wan u to be beside me not behind me but its not possible becuase i cant be beside you. haiyah. why liddat. i dun wanna ask you back for the same things to happen again because i cannot guarantee to be feelin this way all the time esp when im tied down with work. i get distracted den its not fair to you. haiyah. this is damn irritating. i dun wanna think. urgh.what the hell. term paper awaits. maybe ill regret this.urgh.