JAPANESQUE

i've misplaced my theatre juices.

n it sucks.

i feel this constant need to be recognised for the things i do, esp w rgds to my creativity etc.

i mean without them i feel qt gd abt myself alrdy, i mean for sure i've got the sense and eye for aesthetics. maybe a few comic moments or two.

mayb thats why i am bad at receiving criticism or comments?

i need like 'bad news' followed by 'good news' just so i noe it was nt all that bad, you noe?

since coming to hall i've been having quite a few of those experiences
of having high expectations, inducing high expectations, only to have london bridge come crashing down.

how?

i need to build on myself an amour of self-confidence so when criticism come i can console myself with what i think i did fair.

or maybe when dishing out comments pple, try to be a little nicer?

tell me whats bad...den give me some consolation.

a bit pathetic i noe, but it helps me.

i need something i can call my forte in life.