JAPANESQUE

The absolute finality of this all is just so crushing right now.
I have absolutely no idea how to get over this. The comfort, happiness n familiarity of out last 4 yrs tgt jus keeps replaying in my head and I dunno
How to stop that.
It makes me lose so much sleep even though I am jus so tired n I jus wanted to sleep.
Why is this happening why r u doing this to me,Lord.
Is this your punishment to me for being indecisive n blind?
It's so,so painful to know that our 4yrs don't mean anything to u now

Right now I feel that I just can ne'er get over it..
Maybe I need to get rid of everything that u have ever given me but I don't want to
But it hurts to still hold them so dear to my heart when they already mean nothing to u.

Why baby, how come u can lock us away so easily?
How come u can stop loving after just 2 mths?
It's so much easier if I cld hate u but I jus feel that I love u like hell now.
And it just hurts so damn bad

I'm so sorry for what I have done n I'm so sorry I'm too late.,

Now will somebody please help me get back on my feet coz I sure as hell can't do it on my own now...